Dear 2019,

Hey, it’s me. I’m sorry I haven’t spoken to you before. I’m sorry it’s taken so long to finally reach out to you; but here I am. I finally realized that I couldn’t avoid you any longer. And while mostly hopeful for your arrival, I’m somewhat anxious if I’m completely honest. There’s been so much that has happened to me this past year. I don’t wanna talk bad abt 2018 behind their back, but we didn’t always get along the best. It was long and hard (that’s what she said) and very difficult in a lot of ways. 2018 brought a lot of my personal accomplishments and trails to light. 2018 highlighted what I’d known since 2017 showed me. I guess I’ve been so anxious to meet all you have for me because for the first time ever I feel like a new person before our time together has even started. 2019 plz be kind to me. Be gentle with me. Be careful with my heart. 2019 teach me what I’ve failed to learn. 2019 make me wiser, but not too proud. 2019 help me to get better. I hope I am kind to you too. I hope I am hopeful, and sincere and lovely. I will be 18 this year, 2019 guide me thru whatever may come. I’ve been terrified I know, I usually am. But I hope you help me to let go of some of that. 2018 taught me how to be afraid again. So, 2019, teach me that I’m not who I was yesterday or the day before, or the day he left, or the day she got married, or the day he didn’t show up, or the time I was abused, I am who I am today. Teach me that I get to be exactly who I decide I am. Teach me not to let go of my dreams, my expectations, my aspirations. Teach me! Because I’m tired of what I’ve grown accustom to. Teach me because I’m sick of only knowing so little. 2019 come gently and don’t let me underestimate you. I cannot wait to see you and all that you do. With love and light

-jade